About

Are people just a list of things that they've done? If you want that, take a look at the experience or projects page. This is a different take on the about page.

WARNING: Text is a poor representation of someone in reality due to dimensionality reduction. Sound and video are better but inconvenient to do well.

It becomes more clear in memoriam. What we recognize in other people is not their intellect or accomplishments but their will, intuition, and drive. It's something people are born with. Different parts are expressed and shaped by the environment, but everything that was and will be was always there. However, people should distinguish pure drives from societal drives.

One drive (excuse me because at first glance it seems banal) is to find the betters of material goods, but ultimately is a reflection on the constructed world. It's not uncommon, otherwise economic migration wouldn't exist. And it's useful, because buying is ultimately an act of deciding, which is relevant since most of us live under monetary constraints. But I feel as if many arrive at a societally common standard: default house, default media consumption, default laptop menu bar setup, or they go over the top like billionaires with their isolated homes. I don't know, I'm not a billionaire. I ask myself the dimensions that matter—a Rivian, Tesla, and Polestar drive no better than a Toyota and don't smell much better either. However, trunk space matters a lot. And more important than what car you drive is the type of environment you live in.

And along that same drive is the need to read, understand, and see things at a fundamental level. What's the point of going through college for only a certificate? Classes should be relevant and inspiring. Switching out of mechanical engineering was a realization that large swaths of the curriculum were filler for some administrative, generalist job. I quite like doing everything, yet indefinite optimism of future credential leads to nothing. The creative age in which theories of thermodynamic cycles by Carnot, Diesel, Rankine, and others were proposed is long gone. It is this creative scene that gives rise to innovation.

You need to know the principles in addition to being a practitioner. People are ultimately as good as what they consume, mainly driven by the will to find good content, which comes from good taste, another innate characteristic. There is this mental tension. Are things right? From that comes impetus, the will to implement. Remember: I said principles, not trends. To be a pioneer, you have to see the peak because we live in an established society. And from this comes a need to systematize and to organize.

On the topic of people, well, that's complicated. Linearly, I've been unbundled, bundled, unbundled, and looking for the next bundling. But for me the innate drives of understanding, learning, and systematizing have always been stronger than social acceptance, though I understand it's uncommon. And once I came to understand the fundamentals, most of what others did seemed to wash over like noise. I'm still writing my thoughts out on this, but at the moment I'm content being by myself and talking to whoever happens to come up by circumstance.

The Purpose of Life

The basic purpose of life is simple. The consumption and projection of energy to maintain homeostasis and existence. No food, water, air, or shelter: no life. People are capable of doing this to different extents and value this at different levels. If one feels this is met, then they can try to find the next level: self-esteem, meaning, and so on.

Another look at what life is "about" is a path-dependent series of experiences. Would we say someone who lived an entire life in an empty room lived?

What is love?

Love is a feeling generated to enhance the cooperation between individuals to further their life and interests. There are many different types of love: love for humans, animals, and others in general; infatuation; romantic love; parental love; group feeling, and so on. Each serves its own purpose. Seeing the types of love clearly is important.

The Interests of Groups

The unit of human life is not the individual; it is the group or human civilization. All organisms: bacterial biofilms, multi-cellular life, herds of deer and flocks of birds and schools of fish and packs of hyenas, a forest, and so on represent the interconnected nature in which a group comes together to pursue its own survival.

Asking if engagement with a human increases the fitness of the group is the primary question. This is the end goal of interviewing which so few people explicitly say: the addition of an individual that increases the overall fitness of the group to pursue its objectives (in modern economy generally "making money from other sources," printed by the government) and the assumed alignment between interviewing processes and the long-term performance of an individual.

Relationships and love can be thought of in the same way. Does a pairing increase the long-term fitness of the group? This also explains some short-term relationships. All parties must ask themselves if an engagement is of benefit. This is why the most open events have the lowest quality (the public internet, free networking events).

The day homelessness ends is when a group derives benefit from their labor and abilities, of which they have very little.

It is unreasonable to save the world or to love everyone, but you should admit reality and try to while acknowledging constraints

You can have compassion for others, to treat strangers and the environment with respect, and help others where you can. In difficult situations, however, group feeling is the first priority for the allocation of resources.

Any individual that does not adhere by this principle will harm themselves and is acting irrationally.

Recognizing that we live under scarcity, that humans compete with each other through non-violent means such as money and court systems so as not to damage the overall fitness of the group through violence (imagine if your liver fought your heart), and that such material constraints are present in the world is the first step to improving the world.

The premise that "the world is the best it has ever been" and "here are many scientific articles proving it" is nothing short of delusion when one can look outside and see the large amount of automotive pollution, substandard "food" on supermarket shelves, and increase in metabolic diseases.

It is necessary to admit reality.

Humans should prioritize nuture over genetic culling

A common perspective in society is the genetic doctrine or neo-Darwinist doctrine, by which diseases such as cancer are blamed on genetics, the role of the environment is underweighted compared to genes, and there is a general idea of survival of the fittest: culling the weakest members and defective genes.

This is wholly wrong and inhumane. This is a type of pessimism, believing one cannot change their fate due to genetic determinism. It leads to a "good enough" attitude and excuses for not working toward difficult goals, believing the result is already determined. While people are born with different natural abilities, it is clear that increased material wealth and nutrition lead to better outcomes for children and that the recovery of populations is often possible.

The only types of wealth that exist

I believe there are only around 5-6 types of wealth which are enumerable. They are:
  1. Physical Health
    • Being healthy is the crown that only the sick can see.
    • A healthy person has a thousand wishes, a sick person only one.
  2. Mental Conception
    • Your mental awareness of the world affects your state of inner peace, the actions that you take to navigate the world, your understanding of the interactions of others, and so on.
  3. Social
    • Yes, your family and friends, and also the resources they can mobilize, leading to a stratification in society due to the traits of the modern world.
  4. Material Assets
    • It is clear we live in a material world; without such basics, we fail to have even a foundation for higher purposes of life.
  5. Time
    • This can also be considered freedom from obligations. Youth fits in both this and physical health.
  6. Money

Of these, physical health and mental conception take priority. Mental conception is different from mental health; it is someone's education, ways of seeing the world, etc. We see that material assets are secondary to physical health and mental conception. People lacking character and dignity will destroy material assets.

Though social wealth is important, group feeling, family, and history are less important in the modern world as we see a stratification by ability.

Money is just a claim on others' labor and materials, not the end goal of wealth.

Things that surprise others given the above statements

Given the above statements and what appears to be blunt statements about group competition, the material nature of life, love as a mutually beneficial association, the allocation of resources, it may surprise some that some things I hold the highest are:

  1. Tolerance of different thoughts and an attempt to really understand what someone is saying, irrespective of age or rank (egalitarianism)
  2. Compassion for the weak and poor
  3. Lack of racism/judgment
    • There are many people who proclaim to be progressive, yet never take the time to understand what other people are saying and are actually avoidant of people too different from them.
  4. Consideration of feelings as an objective source of truth

Though I would consider myself centrist, the values of general American society are quite left-leaning since the mid 2010s or so. There has been research showing that people on the left are not able to understand those to the right of them as well as the other way around.

Things I do which may annoy you

  1. Commenting on the behavior of others as if they were wildlife
  2. Say things that sound offensive but are actually not so because I don't want to crouch my thoughts in layers of nuance
  3. If I love you I will attempt to change your behavior if what you are doing is harmful
  4. Forgive people quickly but also accuse people often: if I think someone said they're sorry for being late to respond, I generally base it off of past interactions to try and guess if someone is lying or not, and if I feel like someone is lying then the relationship will go downhill
  5. I will have an awareness of your mental "level" and ability, economic background, family background, and so on but try my best to not let it affect our interactions. If you make any common grammar mistakes (not typos) I will always remember them and decrease my weighting of your mental ability 1-2 steps. (I think most people have this but don't admit it)
  6. Responding to you promptly, saying a story where I understand your perspective, and so on do not necessarily indicate my agreement with your ideas or how I see you

Places where I am very different from convention

  1. There is a type of optimism I see as cheery, misguided, and disconnected from reality. These people do not yet understand, I think, the inevitable extreme difficulties in life.

Things I handle better than most people

  1. Extreme stress
    • (driving around flooded roads, emergency need to get to an airport due to a family situation, tight deadlines, fires, monsoons)
    • I don't go looking for trouble.
  2. Being shouted at
    • This was quite common in Germany. Americans tend to take this personally.
    • Premise is based on quick to anger but quick to forgive; most seem to not be able to forget about it. But if there are any contradictions in personality, peace will not happen due to inherent tension.
  3. It's frequent in some of the technology/professional/university circles, but apparently traveling to multiple countries by yourself is uncommon from a population perspective?
  4. Initiative/agency
  5. Creative solutions

I debated whether natural ability or personality can be considered a type of wealth; I think they fall more under physical/mental than anything else.

One major goal in life should be to pursue all types of wealth.

Things that annoy me

  1. Selfishness/narcissism
    • Often revealed by a self-referential way of talking that draws attention back to your own feelings and a lack of consideration for others and their presence.
  2. Lying/inconsistency
    • A pathological inability to say that you were wrong, that something is not appropriate, and instead try to deflect the situation or lie about things even when caught.
    • Saying things that you think I will like based on things I said before.
    • If you are friends with everyone you are not my friend. But it is fine to be friendly to everyone.
  3. Laziness
    • I'd call myself around 30-40% productive usually, so I still have a ways to go. But I think most people are around 5-10% productive in a day.
  4. Love for low standards
    • Note: not the same as perfectionism.
    • Example: choosing to get microwaved chicken nuggets and sit in front of a TV the whole time with no other constraints or limitations on time and feeling no shame about it
  5. Disrespecting nature and littering
  6. Dirty
  7. Enforcement of a certain way of doing things (still unsure what my exact feelings are on this, feeling is that self-expression should not be controlled unless it is disruptive to others)
    • Examples: Making everyone have low-contrast text in a Minecraft server unless they paid for premium, forcing all lowercase on a form, spell check, 5 paragraph essays, speeches people have to sit through
    • This breeds mediocrity and decreases variance
    • Counterexamples that are productive: banning drugs and littering, reducing degeneracy on the internet, military drills to enhance cohesion,
  8. Price gouging